Piss on everything.
It’s got some color.
I’ve started a new blog that’s for positive recovery posts and personal posts as what not. It’s in color, so super different from this blog. But! That’s where I’m going to get personal and if you want to follow my recovery journey, go there. :)
I wash all of these down everyday. It keeps getting to be more and more and I don’t realize how many I’m taking until I hold all of them in my hand at once. I think I have a problem…
My yummy lunch :)
Going light on the “fear foods” because I’ve been struggling lately. But still, there’s CHEESE and DRESSING on that salad which I don’t usually do voluntarily so still a win.
Thinking about making a separate blog for ed stuff like this post. What should I do? Keep these posts here or do another completely different blog for my eating disorder only…?
Drove an hour to buy clothes for senior pictures only to have a breakdown because I looked fat in everything.
It’s so odd to look back on my day and count how many pills I’ve taken. It doesn’t feel like I’m taking too many but I think I took 12 today. Without realizing, I’ve gone through a bottle of 90 in barely a week…
I really don’t want to relapse when I’ve been doing well and know I’ll regret it. Please distract me…
I gave him all of me but he only gave me part of himself because several other girls were secretly getting their share too.
I’m the most useless, worthless, disgusting piece of garbage on earth. No one needs me, no one wants me. If I were gone, there would be one less problem wasting space. Fat. Stupid. Bitch.
I’ve already purged twice today. I hate holidays. I hate eating disorders. Happy Easter.